Making The Clouds Move

There is a great word in Finnish to describe someone's (my) personality, "kulmikas". It means corner'y or angular, and it connotes someone who does not easily assimilate or conform in society, or could also mean someone who is "hard to get along with". Those who know me would most likely not impute this characteristic to me but, however i may appear to my friends and family, i very much feel like a corner'y person. In my inward being, I am constantly dealing with squalls of dissatisfaction, a critical spirit and a monstrous pride that infects and spoils so many beautiful moments and golden opportunities.

It's a dark and ugly cloud that descends over my mind, obscuring the light and beauty that exists all around me as real as the air i breathe. 

The remedy for this plague is simple yet one of the hardest things to do when one is consumed by the cloud: stop thinking about yourself and focus on making someone else happy, no matter how crappy you may be feeling about yourself. 

There is no quicker and more foolproof way to make the clouds part than fixing your eyes beyond yourself. You must run in the direction you least feel like going toward in order to escape because that's how the enemy has set the trap - to make us think and feel like we simply cannot and should not (are not fit to) be with others much less help anyone. 

It is our Heavenly Father's desire that we not live in fear or imprisoned in the clouds of the enemy's making. And we must never forget that anything that separates us from our brother and sisters or our Father is by the enemy's design. That being said, everyone of us will find ourselves in a cloud at one time or another and i hope that when you do find yourself in that place, you will remember that you are not abandoned. Nothing can separate you from the LOVE of Christ.


        "Where can i go from Your Spirit?
         Or where can i flee from Your presence?
         If I ascend into heaven, You are there;
         If I make my bed in hell, behold, You are there.
         If I take the wings of the morning,
         And dwell in the uttermost parts of the sea,
         Even there Your hand shall lead me,
         And Your right hand shall hold me.
         If I say, "Surely the darkness shall fall on me,"
         Even the night shall be light about me;
         Indeed, the darkness shall not hide from You,
         But the night shines as the day;
         The darkness and the light are both alike to You." Psalm 138:7-12